E agora a partir de Singapura, eis que me surge inspiração, agora em Inglês.
Only those who do not travel for business have a positive idea about it. Yes, it is extremely interesting to meet new cultures, to try new cuisines, to experiment new ideas, places, situations… Then…Well, then comes the weekend and suddenly all your colleagues, who are working with you during the week, go back to their families. And there we are, in the hotel room or outside in a bar/restaurant/nature, surrounded by people, sometimes even meeting new people, but alone. And that’s when I think: how can people like myself go back to their “families”=husband and kids (?!) if we have no time to search for one? How can we have a relationship if we have no time to invest on it?
Living in Austria has been a total chaos in terms of perspectives of a love life. The cultural difference is so big that I can say without blinking I will never ever marry or have kids with an Austrian guy. I want my kids to kiss their aunts and not to shake their hands! So I turned to long distance relationships. Oh, these marvelous things. No fighting, no disagreements! Lots of wishing, waiting, praying, thinking and longing. Longing that the day will come when you can finally be together with the one you have been waiting for for months. We are able to “squeeze in” some days in between trips to Asia, Africa, Brazil, etc to be with that person. We try to forget the fact that in 3 days we will be flying to the other side of the world where your agenda will be so full (and you still haven’t finished that presentation!!!) that you are afraid you will not even be able to manage that. But for those 3 days your mind has to be completely free, because after all, you have been waiting for 3 months to be with this guy! And I tell you my friends, this is IMPOSSIBLE! And then months go by in this situation. In your mind there is this thought that maybe one of you will give up their jobs, their families, their world and move next to the other. Just like in the movies. The concept sounds great there: You and me and just looooove and a hut! But this does not happen in real life. In real life there are bills to pay, emigration processes, moving problems, all sorts of things that are not accounted for in the cinema.
So then you are alone again, in a Singaporean hotel, but actually learning to live alone and not to expect miracles. Actually giving up on even trying to get one. Imagining your future at 40, joining your nieces to the disco and being “the coolest aunt” ever! Se assim for, não ‘tá mal!
Um beijo com saudades.